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Sep. 17th, 2010

  • 2:54 PM
blond

Hello. This is a partially (mostly?) friends-locked blog. =)

I am usually not too particular about adding friends if you leave a comment on one of the public posts.

thank you. n_n
 


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Mar. 15th, 2010

  • 11:50 PM
crying


Melo, sweetheart, the fourth chapter of Olympos is out~~~~

and Doll Star has been completed. Though I'm the only one on my flist following it. <333 a pity these great series are so short!

I like working~ ...sometimes.

Now we have to share information.

T___T I was obviously apprehensive. I didn't immediately answer 'okay' like everyone else.

a stroke of luck I happened to chance on some -wrongdoing- to complain about (which is basically what 'sharing information' is. Childish, in my opinion. But your opinion doens't matter so long as you work in the service industry.)

there were too many customers shopping today. Too few people! After dinner we (Kirere and I) totally didn't display anything. Just returned goods, for 3 solid hours and did cashier counting. So much for 27 cages.

I fell down the mrt stairs, but immediately scrambled back up to catch the train. Luckily I didn't make everyone miss it (because everyone turns around to wait for you if you do something stupid like fall down.)

it hurt.

I want to buy a lot of stuff from Daiso before it sells out!! But I *never* make it in time. *sulks*
 

I don't know for the life of me what information I'll share tomorrow. Hopefully some other employee will inconvenience me again sufficiently for me to share it. =))


 



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Mar. 15th, 2010

  • 9:26 AM
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oh no they didn't. >.<

lj just erased my post.

wtf!

a summary: I was tired, naturally, and wore the wrong shoes that caused my feet to ache severely and my coworker to comment that I was walking like her grandmother (limp, limp, limp).

it still hurts. =/ I couldn't really bear the thought of walking all the way home from the busstop (and to the circle line exit from serangoon mrt) that I called my parents to fetch me from potong pasir. T___T Luckily they weren't asleep yet.

stocktake soon! n________n

that's the midnight shift. ~<3 10pm to 6am

the new staff show a definite reluctance to sort through their rubbish and pick up items they swept up from the floor. I had to do it, and found a new packet of nuts (the metal kind). o.O 

 

too many people yesterday. Some people say thanks for your help, and some people give you pissed faces. =) Get used to it. Although why they should expect stellar service when we don't charge them ten percent service charge... and if you think about it, our job isn't even the kind where we stand around wiating for someone to ask us something. We actually have other stuff to do.

a lady got her bag stolen. She put it on the floor for a second and went somewhere else. When she got back it was gone. DUH. I don't know what delusion she had - cctv cameras will never help her get her bag back. I know, to my cost. =/ My handphone was stolen from right in front of me. What more a bag she left unattended, even if only, as she thinks, 'for a while'? And then she went on about how no one would help her (it was a misunderstanding. I asked her if she asked someone else for help, and she said yes, the people who went into the room. So I thought okay, they'll settle it. It might have been my mistake because on hindsight they must have been preparing the float cash and are not allowed to talk to anyone during that time.) in the end she asked to see our manager, and then she was like, if you had just gone through the cctv cameras, and get the police to help me I'd get my stuff back.

seriously? Once it's stolen you've lost it. End of story. If you report it to the police, it's just to give them data to help them in the future (and it's probably useless anyway because it's not like they'll patrol the area.) The only safe way to do things is the carry your bag always in your front like I do, and when you eat, don't put your belongings on another chair, keep them on your lap.

cctv cameras are really just to give you a false sense of security. The only thing that will keep you safe is yourself.
constant vigilance! Yudan sezu ni ikou!

 



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Mar. 14th, 2010

  • 9:29 AM
crying
speaking of movies, I forgot to mention, I *must* go and watch The Eternal Diva when it comes out 18th march. Who's with me? 

DD:

anyone?

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Mar. 13th, 2010

  • 10:48 PM
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I'm really and truly a diehard fan of anything to do with Alice in Wonderland.

butbutbut. I can *not* bring myself to go watch that movie. >.< It's so... ugly! Okay, sorry. I know, artistic freedom and all, but it looks to me like someone trying -too hard- to be different.

being unique doesn't mean you have to be garish. Anyway, all that clowny makeup and outfits scream 'been there done that'.

And even if the cast is filled with actors and actresses that I like. =/ And *really* like. T___T I just don't like the visuals.

allthough it's not that I hate that whole white clown paint makeupand old fashioned clothes. I like the style.. to an extent. =/ It's just not, to me, done tastefully. Did I mention it feels like everyone is trying too hard?

so.. overkill. Really destroys something good. Oh, I think I'm the wrong one here because most of my friends have seen it and liked it. And when there is no higher being to say who is right and wrong, the majority must be right.

I don't get why everyone looks at the mural, advertisements, at that garish art, and go 'I want to see that movie, I think it looks great/cool/beautiful'.

o.OO omgomg. I'm usually the one to find outlandish stuff beautiful, so I don't know what's wrong with me. T__T Why have our roles reversed? Why am I suddenly the one who doesn't like the uniqueness and everyone likes the unique? you could say that everyone liking it has made it mainstream, and it's not unique anymore. But still. >.< I'm missing something here.

It's strange. I'm okay with versions that turn Alice in guys, and I'm okay with the original little girl ones.. but a teenager? A nineteen year old teenager? Gosh, I can only hope there's no, ugh, romance in that movie. >.< Maybe not, but the premise isn't promising, and I guess it's not enough to make me fork out 7 dollars to watch it. =/

anyway... it's ugly, and it sucks, and I'm angry even while the world loves it. A little girl's rant, if you will allow me.

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Writer's Block: Legend has it ...

  • Mar. 12th, 2010 at 9:08 PM
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Do you have a favorite paranormal story and/or urban legend? When did you first hear it? What's the story behind the story?

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Fatal Frame. <3
 

 



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Mar. 12th, 2010

  • 3:56 PM
crying
My spectacles are ready for collection, but I'm stiill going to miss the deadline for the medical report since the clinic closes at5, and my parents are not home, and I do' have the motivation to keep rushing about.

Anyway, the people at the clinic told me everyone who went yesterday won't make the deadline either since the x-ray report won't be done so quickly. o.O THey can't expell us all, can they? Before I step one foot in that school.DD:

And also, I don't have that strong a fear of being expelled now. As in.. I don't think it's so important. I mean.. nothing's important. =// This is what I get for drinking coffee at night. Mum didn't let me use the computer, so I had to lie on my bed and think about stuff. And when I start thinking sooner or later I remember that even thinking is unimportant because there is nothing that truly matters.

I must distract myself more.

which is why I've started reading new manga series. Because all the pretty shoujo manga are *(not* being updated quickly enough, I began to read the ugly ones. And I'm beginning to appreciate ugly art more. I mean, in a way, it's kind of nicer to me now. The way that almost everyone is not pretty is more realistic. And the people look different, Shoujo manga is usually like.. the same faces for everyone and you can only tell people apart from their different clothes and hairstyle.

It's been a while since I loved manga for the plot and not the art.
But now I like the art, since I've ploughed through 8 chapters already. I guess I'm used to it. Can you guess? I'm reading Pumpkin Scissors and Kami no Shizuku. I confess I found Pumpkin Scissors a realyl stupid name. And the cover art looked stupid. The summary was equally stupid. If there had been anything better for me to do and better series comng out at the moment I would never have read this, and never have realised how good it was. n____n Although yes, it is irritating, and there seem to me to be stock images and phrases used in every chapter. Low budget? Tight deadlines? DDD: NO EXCUSE.

The only old series I'm still following is xxxHolic and Rosario. Rosario is terrible now. >.< I can't get past the ecchi and increasing hollowness of the story. Holic is still good. It will always be good, to me. =) And I've given up Vampire Knight and Shugo Chara completely. Sad, when VK was my first manga love. Now. it's just. ugh. **slaps mangaka**

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Mar. 12th, 2010

  • 3:47 PM
crying
the scars that remain from feathers plucked from your back.

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Mar. 11th, 2010

  • 10:21 PM
crying

rage-chan just told me that...

some korean guy got married to a Fate pillow. DDDD:

DDDDDD:


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Mar. 11th, 2010

  • 10:06 PM
crying
 I am an old woman who gave up her dreams years ago for survival. When was it that we realised we would die to no good end, and the use of a death?

  Even without the senses they struggle to live but die anyway. What you gain is a momentary semblance of triumph over the forces that drag you down.

beyond your comprehension, you can only think that what you know is the truth, because it is the only truth you know. Madmen amongst their own are sane, and the sane man goes mad.

we seek meaning, and there is no meaning in what we know, so we seek what we do not know. But there is none in what we do not know, because what we do not know is not available to ourselves.

Black can go no darker only because we can perceive no farther.

Therefore we fit the grid of reality to our perception. It is false. But what is false is the only thing left that makes sense.

That means, by the way, the only thing that we can understand. So we understand only what can not be true.

and the truth as we call it will not be known.

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Mar. 10th, 2010

  • 11:26 PM
crying
  I made an alice bow!

It's *oretty*

but I doubt I can wear it on the train without people staring. Since it's nice and large. And I don't have the Alice look. T__T

still. Three and a half hours! And less than 4 dollars = alice bow. muahahaha. What do these people pay 50 dollars+shipping for? =DD

Instead of using cloth to bind the bow, I used a piece of lace to tie in instead, since my cloth was cut to the wrong measurements or something. >.< 

Tomorrow I'll start sewing the skirt. By hand. Since my sewing machine's not working. I sewed the alice bow by hand too. >.< 

Without spectacles. <.<<<

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Mar. 10th, 2010

  • 9:27 AM
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Broke my spectacles. GAH! I can barely type this as we speakj. T+___T I'm blind!

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Mar. 9th, 2010

  • 11:37 PM
crying

Many things happened today.

 

And very little happened today.

If you understand what I say, you understand everything there is to me.


Today on the train, tears came to my eyes from *no reason* whatsoever. Then I realised I was listening to Chou. o.O

Horrible, horrible, customers.

HORRIBLE.

Die in a fire.

Gosh, there was this customer who expected us to serve them on our LUNCH BREAK. Hello. We punched out the card. We're not working during that time. Wth are you asking us???? T_____T Can't you see we're not in uniform? So you know we work here, doesn't mean you can interupt my dinner!!!! I only have fifty-five minutes! Unpaid!

And others who.. are just too... -.- to mention.

Gah! I hate, hate them all. *especially* those with snark. And sarcasm. God, just because I work there doesn't mean I magically know of the existence of every item in the store (we turned out not to have the item, which was a brush for the vacuum cleaner, whut?)

And I can't be sarcastic back, because I'm working. Damn you all.

And the black hairband I wanted to buy sold out. Stupid customers. T__T

I'm going to try and sew a skirt tomorrow. I'll buy the fabric from Daiso, because I feel weird asking for only 1 yard if I buy from chinatown. lol.

My brother is essentially fine, but doctors play safe and want him to remain one more day. More money gone. There's nothing wrong with him. He just has a headache, cough, you know... all the symptoms I have right now, except apparently his is more serious. -.- once he's in the hospital, my parents really couldn't care if I'm unwell.

I went to see him again, but not tomorrow, since I *need* my shopping fix. I spend too much money. *sigh*

 

Love, you underestimate the power of money.

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Mar. 9th, 2010

  • 10:37 AM
crying
My brother *may* be discharged today.

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Mar. 8th, 2010

  • 9:47 AM
crying

Hello, my darlings. I've been too busy and tired to use the computer. Like, seriously.

I went back to work yesterday. It felt great! All the irritating customers, all the adorable staff, even getting reprimanded, I miss it all. I miss displaying goods, running for the cashier bell, eating the cup noodle plus Gulp combo from 7-11.

So this means having a break will let me enjoy my work more

I feel really really sad that I have to stop working soon. T__T I want to go on. =//

But there was this really crazay auntie yesterday. Whom I *must* rant about one day.

For now, I visited my brother before work yesterday. Since SGH is at Outram, it's only one mrt stop from Harbourfront, so it's fine. =// I walked around for ages before getting to the right block.

He can barely move, I think. =/ When I got there, he was picking at his porridge, but my mum tells me he hadn't eaten anything for two days before that.
I brought a baguette! So I gave him a piece. He didn't talk much. I don't quite know why, and I didn't actually feel sad or anything, but a tear or two might have come out, o.OOO Those needles stuck into his hand looked scary. And there are two tubes, and one is red. =/ Blood. He told me it was because of something my mum did that blood got into the tube. I didn't really catch it because he was speaking reallly softly.

If I can manage my stuff in time (send my enrolment forms! Poly enrolment process is a pain. A big fat pain.)I'll go to see him again today.

The president of Daiso is coming over today, I think. Together with the founder of Daiso. !

Oh yeah, this is for Melo, since I can't grab her at all online. =/ I thought like mentioning I'm changing 'Hiroyuki' to 'Hirotake'. Because the former is too feminine.

No time to read all the manga!

And the doctors at SGH.

-.-
They're basically putting up a show for us because they don't know what's wrong with him. They took an xray of his stomach yesterday. Whut? The stomach, as far as I know, is a muscle. You don't take xrays of muscles, because you don't get anything! Xrays are for *bones*

-.-

That's partly the reasoning behind my pursuing medical stuff. So I will know about doctors and they'll never be able to cheat me. >.< We are too vulnerable without knowledge. Knowledge is a power we *must* have.

Let's hope everything comes okay.



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Mar. 6th, 2010

  • 9:55 PM
crying
Today is Jingwen's birthday. Happy birthday!

my brother was hospitalised today.

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Mar. 5th, 2010

  • 12:03 PM
crying

I wanted to scold my brother for being late, but he's very sick. >.< Too bad. Have to scold him another time.

I reprimanded my mother for taking my cream OUT of the fridge.

what what what.
Most mums help their kids put their dairy products IN the fridge. Who takes it out? It's spoilt now. Argh! My chocolate truffle recipe!

didImentionI'mgoingtomaketrufflesto-day?

Oh wait. I *was* going to make truffles today.

Hm. 

 
Omg. =/ Yesterday I bought clothes from Bega. "cause it was at that nice open space next to the Coffee Bean where I was teaching Sandra to knit.
And someclotheslookedreallynice.

And they were at like, Bugis Street prices! (10-15 dollars)

so I succumbed to temptation and bought three shirts.

After I got home I tore off the discount tags, and realised that the original prices were crazy.

Wayyyy crazy. o.O The kind of price I'd pay for a dress, maybe, but never a top.
By this I mean 36-39 dollars.

o.OOO  That's more than the most expensive dress I own. =/ My cheapest dress is 15 dollars, and the most expensive one is around thirty.

So I basically paid 10 dollars for a 39 dollar shirt. 15 for a 39 dollar blouse. And 15 for a 36 dollar shirt plus deco.

andIdidn'trealiseittillIgothome.

o.OOOOOOO I wanted to buy more clothes but I was afraid I was spending too much at one go (though there were some painfully nice blouses. But I didn't choose them because they were 19 dollars, four dollars more than my usual budget. Yes, my budget per piece is 15 dollars.)

Sandra bought a dress for 33 dollars. =/ Original price was 60+
I think. Or was it 80?

We should go to sales more often. =DDD

And then we went to NTUC where I showed off my 'auntie' spirit by taking the juice at the back of the shelf instead of the front just because the expiry was 2nd april instead of 30 march. T___T I'm too auntie. T____T I'm too old!

Paid by nets. Gosh. Paying by nets is scary. I don't feel the heartpain even when I spend more than a hundred dollars. Maybe I shouldn't have a nets card. I'll never get a credit card. DD:

bought the instant cake mix. Because Sandra said it was good. And I wanted to see how much easier it is using an instant mix rather than doing everything from scratch like I usually do.

I'm still shocked by how much the tops cost originally. Like, who would pay that kind of money? (But apparently they do, because I see loads of aunties shop at Bega when it's *not* on sale.) the colours Bega has can get really garish. =/ Which is probably why I zoomed in on the monotone grey and blacks.

What I really want is plain, long sleeved, black clothing. I could wear no other colour but black every day of my life and be contented.

But my mum still doesn't let me wear black.

curses! =DDD


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Mar. 4th, 2010

  • 12:47 PM
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My dad was arguing with my grandmother. My grandmother is one of those really nutty devout catholics. She says that no single cathollic has ever killed anyone, or stolen anything, or done anything wrong.

And then she told my dad that the PAP were all catholics.

Instead of just shutting up, patting her on the shoulder and smiling like everyone else does, he *had* to tell her she was wrong. >.<

And then my grandmother accused him of blasphemy. Because he said that catholics have killed people before. (So true.)

Of course, you can see from this that she hasn't ever read the Bible. All those times when God purportedly brought the people to victory in wars...

To win that war, they had to kill so many people. Albeit it was the 'enemy', but you know what? I'm not from Israel. We the chinese would probably be the 'enemy' in those times too. It was so stupid. They saw the good, fertile land, and they said God promised them to land, so they killed the people that were living in that land to take it.

 How could that possibly be right?

My father told my grandmother that humans have no right or wrong. No one is right, and no one is wrong. But I think differently. I think humans are never right. We are only wrong. The only difference between our actions is how much more wrong it can get. But everything we do is selfish and wrong, wrong, wrong. If we thought every action through to the long term, even donating to charity could have harmful effects.

But we just don't think these things through, do we?



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Mar. 4th, 2010

  • 12:39 PM
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  I went back to Daiso on my off day to buy stuff. Saw my supervisor and it seems she's not too pissed over the broken stuff. I feel mildly better about that. I'm going to be super super careful from now on. >.< 

  I'm actually mildly unwell. I have on and off feverish moments. There are times when my eyes black out/blur and it takes seconds to regain proper eyesight. Also, sometimes when I'm standing, my legs don't have the strength anymore, and I must sit down. Sore throat has been plaguing me for days. Hot weather, I suppose. I'm really fearful of swings in temperature. Should ever a climate change like one that wiped out the dinosaurs happen, I'd be the first human to fall. Since I have zero adaptibility and tolerance to hardship. Like, you know those people who are rescued from collapsed buildings have to drink their own urine and stuff? I'd never be able to do that, so I'd just die.

  not to mention that these rescued people have amazingly strong willpower to live. Recently I was thinking that dying isn't so bad. There was a line in the latest Artemis Fowl that I liked (though I liked little else. I'm still cringing at the contradictory elements. Eoin Colfer should go back and read his previous book. Altogether the AF series is becoming like the bible - the front contradicts the back and it's all messed up.) it was something like 'when you are about to die, it doesn't matter how many people want to kill you'. Not verbatim. I can't quite recall the exact words.

  A while back though, I was feeling a pretty strong desire to live. Particularly the line from Lion 'I want to live' struck a chord, but now it's getting very tiring. I think life is tiring. There's not a day I don't feel tired, and generally my posts begin or end, or mention somewhere that I'm tired.

  Everyone is tired, no?

  I always feel so irritated when I hear this song in Daiso. It's sung by a guy or something, and he says 'No one know how it feels, to be hated, to be fated, to telling only lies' and 'to be the bad man, sad man'.

-.-

you think you have it so hard? Ohhhh NO ONE KNOWS WHAT IT'S LIKE. BECAUSE YOUR LIFE IS SOOOO SAD. Get over yourself already.

why would you be the only that that is hated? Do you even know or care how many people know what it's like to be hated - everyone??

geez. And if you keep telling lies, it seems to me it must be your own fault - since you're the one saying it. It's your -choice-, and you always have a choice. You could tell the truth or tell lies, but it's not -fated- because you -choose- to do so. Fate didn't choose for you, you did for yourself.

"no one knows what it's like to be mistreated, to be defeated'.

hahahahahaha.

o.OOO 

o.OOOOO

*kills songwriter*

He probably wrote this reading some emo story and thought hm, let's write an emo song about how I'm the only one who ever loses, I'm the only one who's ever been mistreated in this damn beautiful fairytale world.

And then after he finished writing it, he rode off in his Ferrari to some club to party the night away boozing. And woke up the next morning with some hot chick in bed.


insincere brats.

die in a fire, die in a fire, die in a fire.

And then let all your money go to charity.
 



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